Monday, January 25th || Evening || 7:50 p.m. 

My Dear Eden, 

We are here, just hours away from seeing you for the first time.

Joy comes in the morning to me and that joy will always be you

Many people have asked me how I am feeling or what I am most excited about. There are so many things, but the one thing I keep thinking about is you. 

I can't wait to know you - what makes you happy, that spunky little personality they all talk about. I wonder if you love the water like your mama or can't sit still like your daddy. 

I wonder what that little, big heart of yours is feeling. I want to know everything about you.

We explored the city today, Eden. I have never loved a city more. Its filled with good people who smile so humbly, so sweetly. You come from "the land of smiles" and today we experienced that and understand the depths of what that means. 

One day I hope you look back on all I have documented and see that every path lead me to you, Eden. Every. single. one. 

It's magic, really. How God looked all over the world and brought us togetherIt's better than any fairy tale I could read to you or pen. And it's ours. Beautifully, remarkably, ours. 

Tonight I lay down and all I want you to know is...

No matter how scared or nervous you may be tomorrow or how you present yourself (or excited like the social worker told us), we will love you

No matter the darkness, you will endure through life, we will walk it with you

No matter if you steal a carton of eggs from the neighbors like your mama did , we will deal with it and let you know no matter what, you will always be ours - loved and wanted. 

And in the moments, when you succeed and make mama & daddy so proud. We will stand cheering the loudest and always be in your corner saying, "that one there, she is ours, and she is the best thing that ever happened to us." 

Because Eden, you are & you will always be - the best He gave us. You aren't a second thought or a plan B. 

You will always be our true north and when the winds blow & storms of life come (and I promise they will), I hope you always come home to me. 

So I can whisper in your ear, 

"This one here, she is mine, forever loved by me." 

See you in the morning, Eden, 

I love you, 

Mommy

What I am Listening to: 

Good, Good Father by HouseFires II 

Oh, I've heard a thousand stories of what they think you're like
But I've heard the tender whisper of love in the dead of night
And you tell me that you're pleased
And that I'm never alone

You're a Good, Good Father
It's who you are, it's who you are, it's who you are
And I'm loved by you
It's who I am, it's who I am, it's who I am

Oh, and I've seen many searching for answers far and wide
But I know we're all searching
For answers only you provide
Cause you know just what we need
Before we say a word

You're a Good, Good Father
It's who you are, it's who you are, it's who you are
And I'm loved by you
It's who I am, it's who I am, it's who I am

Cause you are perfect in all of your ways

What I am Reading: 

Romans 8, the Message \\ Daily Light 

This resurrection life you received from God is not a timid, grave-tending life. It’s adventurously expectant, greeting God with a childlike “What’s next, Papa?” - the spirit of adoption - God’s Spirit touches our spirits and confirms who we really are. We know who he is, and we know who we are: Father and children. And we know we are going to get what’s coming to us—an unbelievable inheritance! We go through exactly what Christ goes through. If we go through the hard times with him, then we’re certainly going to go through the good times with him!

18–21 That’s why I don’t think there’s any comparison between the present hard times and the coming glory times. The created world itself can hardly wait for what’s coming next. Everything in creation is being more or less held back. God reins it in until both creation and all the creatures are ready and can be released at the same moment into the glorious times ahead. Meanwhile, the joyful anticipation deepens.

22–25 All around us we observe a pregnant creation. The difficult times of pain throughout the world are simply birth pangs. But it’s not only around us; it’s within us. The Spirit of God is arousing us within. We’re also feeling the birth pangs. These sterile and barren bodies of ours are yearning for full deliverance. That is why waiting does not diminish us, any more than waiting diminishes a pregnant mother. We are enlarged in the waiting. We, of course, don’t see what is enlarging us. But the longer we wait, the larger we become, and the more joyful our expectancy.

26–28 Meanwhile, the moment we get tired in the waiting, God’s Spirit is right alongside helping us along. If we don’t know how or what to pray, it doesn’t matter. He does our praying in and for us, making prayer out of our wordless sighs, our aching groans. He knows us far better than we know ourselves, knows our pregnant condition, and keeps us present before God. That’s why we can be so sure that every detail in our lives of love for God is worked into something good.

29–30 God knew what he was doing from the very beginning. He decided from the outset to shape the lives of those who love him along the same lines as the life of his Son. The Son stands first in the line of humanity he restored. We see the original and intended shape of our lives there in him. After God made that decision of what his children should be like, he followed it up by calling people by name. After he called them by name, he set them on a solid basis with himself. And then, after getting them established, he stayed with them to the end, gloriously completing what he had begun.

31–39 So, what do you think? With God on our side like this, how can we lose? If God didn’t hesitate to put everything on the line for us, embracing our condition and exposing himself to the worst by sending his own Son, is there anything else he wouldn’t gladly and freely do for us? And who would dare tangle with God by messing with one of God’s chosen? Who would dare even to point a finger? The One who died for us—who was raised to life for us!—is in the presence of God at this very moment sticking up for us. Do you think anyone is going to be able to drive a wedge between us and Christ’s love for us?

None of this fazes us because Jesus loves us. I’m absolutely convinced that nothing—nothing living or dead, angelic or demonic, today or tomorrow, high or low, thinkable or unthinkable—absolutely nothing can get between us and God’s love because of the way that Jesus our Master has embraced (adopted) us.


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